It’s been exactly 6 months since I became a stripper…on August 8, 2008 I committed to not buying anything new for one year, making today my half-way point! So here is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth regarding my partial nudity.
(I hope my blog doesn’t come up in the google search engine under “partial nudity”…hmmmm.)
Anyways, the question none-of-you have been DYING to know…Has the former Target addict seriously not bought anything new for 6 whole months? (drumroll please!) In 6 months, I, Jennifer Carlson, have purchased ONE new thing: a bike lock. For months, I stored my bike in my bathroom (I have a big bathroom) while I searched thrift stores high-and-low for a bike lock to no avail. After thoughtful consideration, I made the executive decision to purchase a bike lock, as my roommate would not tolerate it in our living room (plus, I’d get tangled up in the gears on those middle-of-the-night bathroom runs!)
Has it been difficult? Of course it has not been natural, yet it has not been as hard as I thought. Here’s my theory (and I’d love to hear your thoughts on any of this) It’s as if there are 3 answers we can give when faced with a purchase.
1. I will buy it
2. I can’t buy it
3. I won’t buy it
Saying I WILL is easy. You see a sweater and say “I’ll buy it!” It’s cute, you want it, you take it. What about the I CAN’T? We assume that this is difficult…but I have discovered that it really isn’t. Once we are resolved to something, the decision is much easier. You see a sweater and say “I can’t buy it.” That’s that – and you walk away.
The third choice is seeing a sweater you like…and there are no rules. You can do whatever you want (even though we might not NEED it, we may not have the money, its medicine after a bad day at work, appearances matter more than they should, etc…) BUT despite all that you say, “I won’t buy it.”
To me, this year of giving up not buying anything new is NOT THE REAL TEST. I think the real test for me will start on August 8, 2009. The day that I can once again, buy whatever I want, when I want…no rules…no limits. On that day, I will have to walk into a store and instead of shrugging as I walk past the sweaters, I’ll find myself stopping. I’ll find myself thinking. I’ll find myself weighing options. There will now be a CHOICE. It doesn’t take strength to say “I can’t” – but it takes superhero strength to say “I WON’T”.